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Homework from 7/18/2024 During a 3 day professional development grief & trauma workshop "A loving peer training approach"

Who am I? My name is Krystal “Kito" Cunningham. I am Filipino-Hawaiian. Born and raised on the island of Maui. Our Ohana is 6 generations deep. I am so grateful to be rooted & planted here  and what a gift to be able to raise my children here. I have always felt a deep connection to my ancestors and to spirit. Massage is my therapy. It keeps me sane. lol... I am a 40+ year old mom of 3, wife of almost 2 decades, and an energetic mompreneur. I will happily go into debt for any and all Disney vacations. I am like an onion. I have many layers to my being..And if cooked just right, I can be oh so sweet… I knew at a young age that I could not work a normal 9-5 job, and I am so proud to say… the longest (by the books) corporate job I held was 2 years at the Hyatt regency Maui as a spa attendant. -It was here that I came to the realization that I valued my freedom above all else. (Why are these freaking massage therapists coming in after me and leaving before me! WHAT THE FAK?) and so the rest is history. In work and in life, I try to conduct myself with a sense of “what if that were me perspective” the “what would it be like if I were in their shoes attitude”What if that were me coming into work the next day, is the oil refilled? Is the room clean? Is trash taken out, etc? What if that were me on the massage table, what would I want to receive?...because I firmly believe that how you treat others or things is how you essentially treat yourself. 2 decades ago, I started on a quest, and of course at that time I didn't know it was a quest. I happened to be at a life changing event and from then on the floodgates opened. I made an unwavering commitment to myself that I will forever be a student of life….curious about everything. I started by questioning my beliefs, are these mine or was it given to me, what are my triggers, what do I value, what’s my purpose, why am I here, why did this happen? At first I wanted to lay blame. But as I learned, this mama aint no victim. I alone am responsible for my actions, and I am in the driver's seat of my life, co-creating my reality.I see now that I didn’t want to be defined by my childhood traumas, the lying, the cheating, the stealing, and bankcruptcy. Not to mention recently the loss of our home, and everything in our home, and two of our physical business locations, car etc. Sure, I have walked through so much,  etc. but it hasn’t been a linear journey, and the universe will always bring "shit" up to the surface to test, and see how much “energy" is still there. Like…Sister, Are you still attached or have you learned or gained the blessings? And by doing the continued work, I am shining light on the “shadow parts" of myself that I thought were unlovable, to shameful, and oh so embarrassing…sometimes it's too scary and painful to face, but my hope and humble desire is to bring all of my “selves” from Baby Krystal till present time Krystal..In to… love and alignment...So that I can be wholesome and in present time…. “We are not who we were yesterday…we are an EVER evolving version of ourselves, striving to be just a little bit better, wiser, humble and patient.” And if I am just one step ahead of someone on their journey, I can be that hand, shoulder, or an example, that if i can go through the F'en WRINGER and back… so can you. I trust in the universe and spirit to know that I am not alone on this path either. Someone is also a few steps ahead, holding space, giving permission…and that love will always be there. Mahalo for taking the time to read a quick snippet of who I am. I look forward to meeting you, and being of service. -Kito

Homework from Cosmic Awareness 8 week Class (diving deeper into the gates of Human design) 11/5/24

Homework from Cosmic Awakening an 8 week course diving into the gates of Human Design (Ask me about it later..lol) November 5, 2024 --- Aloha Kakou, (everyone) I apologize in advance…it’s a long post. My name is Krystal, lol I go by Kito (key-toe)😜. I am from the Island of Maui🌺. I’m a 6/2 Manifesting Generator with a conscious core expression all about CONFLICT. 🥊 With Gate 6, the Gate of Friction, and Line 6 the line quality of being  ✌️“The peacemaker” ✌️ I most definitely resonate with the statement that growth cannot exist without friction. My whole existence has thrusted me into numerous opportunities for drum roll please...GROWTH, and as painful as that has been  each time I am able to peel back yet another layer of my “onion🧅”..of self…and be gifted with new eyes to see beauty within, and the beauty within others.  By embracing the “👤shadow” parts of myself,  I am able to feel more at ease, and more at peace…  I AM MORE EMBODIED…or as I like to say… in-my-body.   Growing up for me, like most 👧children who naturally (before we are “conditioned”..lol), …are in touch with their emotions, They can tell when.. (lol excuse my pidgin language…lol)  Aunty get “good vibes”, or … Ewww.. Uncle over there…is giving of some “creepy vibes” let’s back the “F, UP” Right? Lol… I remember as a young child I had very very strong emotions and feelings…I would walk into a room and feel who was happy, who was sad, mad etc., and I wanted to fix the unhappy person's feelings… so I molded myself to be a people 👯‍♀️pleaser, a 🤡clown, a good 👧 girl, whatever it was you name it. I didn’t understand why people were so unhappy…. And in doing so, I lost myself, because the little voice of truth/spirit got stifled, shut down, and frankly not heard 🙉 by my parent’s, or family, and most of all myself…. Over time I didn’t trust myself, and that created a real split within, and because I didn’t trust myself, I didn’t trust others, and because  I didn’t trust others…I lived in fear, fear that if I put my trust in this person, they will ultimately hurt me…so I learned not to let anyone get to “close”.  Most times…they would say one thing and do another, and then I too began doing that to myself… Couple that with having to grow up amongst my peers…OMG…….😳🤨🙄🏫elementary, 🏫intermediate, and 🏫high school, phew…..the anxiety, the unworthiness, the shame. The constant tape recorder on repeat…”i’m not good enough”..."I'm not good engough" ​ And because the 🌎 Universe is so awesome, it brought more and more evidence into my existence of that “truth”. But no matter how alone I felt. In some weird “knowing way” I felt held, 🥰 loved, and 🦮guided and connected to something bigger than me…like I knew I have a sense of direction and purpose…and no one is changing my course of action. Little by little I made up new beliefs that there has to be more to life than this…and I deserved more… I prayed to the Universe for someone to protect me, to love all of me, a friend, and someone I could trust… I craved freedom so badly…but growing up in a filipino household, at least for me, felt like it's either your dependent upon the family, or they are dependent upon you…. don’t get me wrong, that system has its pluses and minuses (it does however need a bit of an update…😅 to catch up with the times…🤣 plus I absolutely love my family and I am most definitely reliant on them...now... ​ But as for me the younger version of me...I wanted to experience life ...and I wanted it now… Be careful of what you wish🧞‍♂️ for Krystal…because….guess what came wrapped up in a big ole bow…and came looking for me in a Toyota 🛻Tacoma…(another conversation) The biggest and bestest…😂 (there’s that pidgin again) gift the Universe 🌎 blessed me with… a FRIEND, who bit by bit started to show me whole new world, and new horizons to pursue…. lol just like Aladdin did….  Our friendship turned into wild physical passion and in a few short years led us to becoming young clueless parents, as do most of us right? lol Then 2 years after that he put a ring on it 💍 and on 11/14 we will be celebrating our 18th wedding 💕🥳anniversary… TRUTH BE TOLD there is no end of CONFLICT FUEL with my 5/1 Generator husband. 😂🤪🤓🔪🗡️ or I'm sure he would say, I am the fuel and the conflict and the reason why his hair is thinning out..lol But it's because of this union I began the first steps of my evolution 20+years ago and counting. I am still on that quest, and will forever be…

© 2024 KRYSTAL CUNNINGHAM

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